Friday, August 12, 2011

Reality Check 2011

Reality check 2011. It's been a little over 2 years since I wrote that, and a few things have changed, but the main problem is still here. I got up to 374 and have been hovering around 365 for most of the time. Down to 352, up again to 366 today. Trying for a week here and there to eat real foods, but falling back into junk foods to balance my brain.

I do still believe in the real need for real foods. I feel so much better in almost every way when I am eating veg, fruit, rice, potato, and oatmeal, and the weight falls off quickly when I do. The only thing missing I think is something to balance my brain. My brain has been so overstimulated for so many years by fast food, chocolate, cheese, and sugar, that it is hard at first to replace the burst of feel-good energy, and then stupor that comes from that kind of eating. The feel good is only a burst though, because a few minutes into that kind of eating and I feel worse, sicker, fatter, and it's harder to think clearly, hence the "stupor" that is so draining. And overall the damage that kind of eating has done to me and my life is severe, and really sad if I think about it too much.

I have two battles to fight every day. One is planning and preparing healthy real foods, the other is replacing the high from junk foods. Eating better works when I plan ahead, cook ahead, eliminate junk from my surroundings, and have plenty of fast easy choices prepared ahead of time. But redirecting the addictions is harder to figure out. The book "The End of Overeating" has several good ideas for learning new habits and re-training your responses.

So it becomes now a matter of filling that gap with something that is not junk.